Thursday, December 15, 2011

You know what really sucks about falling for a guy you know you’re not right for? You fall anyway because you think he might turn out to be different. – Mary (from Another Cinderella Story)

You know that feeling you get when you know that you can make someone happy out there. That feeling that builds up with time & experience throughout the years. The feeling that you wish you could have someone honest & serious, someone who you could invest your all into, and someone who you could share those precious limited years god gifted you with. Those limited precious years are there for a reason, everyone has their own interpretation on what you should be investing those years on. Some would argue that it should be invested on faith & religion, where as others believe that it should be invested in Love. Love has many forms; you may be in love with your family or with one individual or even in love with your job & success. Love is an emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. In philosophical context, love is a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection; and "the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another". You offer such big amount of understanding to life of love & you’re constantly thriving to find that special person but still fail. That’s not failure from your side, that’s a failure of society because it grew up recently on the idea that commitment is unwanted & that it’s such a waste of time & effort. I’ve realized this today that starting something with anyone is hard because you have no idea how serious people are.

I am no love guru; I shouldn’t be telling you what you should do & what not to. I’ve printed here what I truly believe in. I can relate to everyone that holds such love & commitment within themselves but with no one to share that love with; a person who holds so much love but yet is so damn scared to put the time & effort into someone else who’s not serious. I feel sorry for those people. It’s not an easy task to spot people who aren’t serious; trust me everyone wants to have a taste of a free meal. Those people would try what you offer & go along with it until they get bored. You’re the victim here. You’ve fallen hard for the wrong person & that in future will be negatively reflected on people you’ll be interested in. I despise those kinds of people who take someone’s love for granted & for a free ride. That’s the true form of selfishness & the failure of doing good for another. I personally don’t take people for granted when it comes to love, if I’m not serious then I’ll tell you “let’s not make this serious”. However, I would take someone’s love for granted if I want all their love & nothing but love. Sometimes I wonder why we meet the people we’re meant to be with  later  in life, I really am jealous from those who met their soul mates & the love of their life in early teenage years & ended up forever together. How amazing is that. How relaxing & emotionally fulfilling to focus all your love, time & effort on one person. That person means the world to you; you share every moment of sorrow & happiness together. You know by the end of the day that your going home to that one person who gives you butterflies every time you kiss/you’re going home to the love of your life & that by the end of the day you’re not alone & that there is someone waiting for you at home. That last person your eyes would fall asleep to. That doesn’t happen to everyone. I had a taste of that for almost 2 years & I’m glad that I’ve shared my limited human years on earth with that person. That’s why I believe that people who encounter such happiness & commitment get battled when it comes to starting a new relationship. Confusion plays a major role in the equation because you don’t even know who to trust anymore after falling for the wrong people. By the end of the day your all alone in this world, you hold such a big heart with a huge amount of love & commitment but yet there is no one to share that love with, there wont be that last person your eyes would fall asleep to.

Love,
SA

1 comment:

  1. I feel everything that you have written in here. You are so right..you were able to put in words the exact emotions I am feeling for a very long time. Love is beautiful but I got wounded because it - and it affects every single part of me. Sometimes you just can't stop loving a person eventhough you know it is not right anymore. It is an uncontrollable feeling.

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